Hi God, how have you been? I know there's a lot going on, but I also know that You're the God of the Universe, so I have a hard time imagining You busy. You always have time for me, and I appreciate that.
The biggest thing in our life is still the baby. We went and visited a new doctor here in the United States a few weeks ago. We both really like her. She seems to care about us, and she seems knowledgeable. It came at the right time. We've started the regimen already. The only thing that bothers me is that I feel like we've left You out of things. I know You've been there, laying Your hand on things and blessing us. But I don't feel like we've included You like we should. I'm sorry about that. But thank You for still being faithful. Please continue to be a part of this. We want You there. We need You there.
I also want to apologize for getting mad over losing the other babies. Everyone told us it's Your timing, but that doesn't mean anything in the moment. But our doctor said something that stuck with me. She said that there might have been something wrong with the embryos and that we lost them to protect us. Even though it's still hard, and I know You could have fixed them, it was strangely comforting to think that You're out there protecting us; watching over us, setting us up for something better. I know that's what everyone else was trying to tell us, but it came out differently from her. So, I'm sorry for getting upset, and I'm thankful that You're watching out for us.
"I love the Lord, for he heard my voice; he heard my cry for mercy. Because he turned his ear to me, I will call on him as long as I live." Psalm 116:1-2 NIV
"The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." Deuteronomy 31:8 NIV
