Missed It By 1 Minute

This morning, my wife woke me up at 4:59 a.m.  How can I be so precise, you might ask?  Because my alarm goes off at 5:00 a.m.  So, she wakes me up, crying and sniffling.  I held her for a while, just rubbing her back and letting her get it all out.  When the tears let up a little, I asked her what was wrong, and she said, "I can't feel anything."  Not sure exactly what that meant, I dug a little deeper, and she replied, "I can't feel the baby.  The last time, I felt 'something,' a connection to the baby.  I don't know how to explain it, but I felt different."

Now, I'm no expert, but I'm not sure that you can feel a pregnancy after 1 week.  I mean there are lots of women that go 5-6 weeks before they realize they're pregnant, so 1 week seems too soon.  But I'm a man, so I have no personal frame of reference about this.  I do know that not all pregnancies are the same.  The same woman can experience different symptoms between two different babies.  So, I'm not taking this as a sign that this round is over.  We still have two days until the blood test, so I'm just going to wait and see.

As we lay there, my wife asked me, "How do you feel?  Do you feel different this time?"  I replied that honestly, I felt exactly the same.  I didn't feel at all.  I don't sit around stressing about it, or getting anxious.  I don't let it sit in the front of my mind all of the time, because it does absolutely no good.  I can't control it.  I can't change the outcome.  I just worry for nothing.  I have to let God take it, and I have to let it go.  He has this, and it's His will either way.  So, I just wait for the blood test.