Servanthood

For obvious reasons, the doctor told my wife to take it easy, don't lift anything, and don't really exert herself.  So, I have taken over all of the housework.  It's a lot for one person to handle, especially after you've worked all day.  My normal inclination is to grumble and complain that nobody is helping me, but every time I feel those thoughts coming over me, I think about why I'm doing it.  I'm serving my wife, so she can take time to rest while our baby decides if it wants us or not.

Servanthood is a theme that God has been laying on my heart for over two years now.  He has been showing me that the best leaders serve their people.  So, I have been trying to be a better servant with my wife and my coworkers.  To find opportunities to open myself up to helping other people without restraint or thought to what it costs me.

These last couple of weeks have really amped up my servant's heart and tested it with an intense fire.  God has used this opportunity to purify it and take it to the next level.  I was telling my mom about being exhausted from all of the work I have to do, and she offered to come up and help me.  While her gesture was very sweet, I told her that it was something that I had to do alone.  She immediately said that I have always been stubborn and strong-willed like that.  I don't readily or easily accept help.  While that might be true, I told her that that wasn't it.  I felt like God wanted me to go through this, so that I learned not only to be a servant, but to do it without grumbling.  I wouldn't learn that if I had help.  And I wouldn't learn to lean on Him more when I get weary.

I know that God will give me the strength to endure.  I know that He has been preparing me for this exact moment for over two years.  I just need to learn to surrender and let Him use me.