Favorites

I feel slightly bad that I’m already playing favorites with my children. Troy is already my favorite, and the others aren’t even here yet! That's probably why I'm so hesitant when my wife talks to me about additional children. I love this little guy so much, and I love getting to spoil him. I'm afraid that with another child, I will have to divide my time, and neither will get the best of me. I mean, he's my best bud. How can I have two best buds?! And I'd want to, because that's who I am. Which would cause me stress and angst. I'm just going to leave it up to God to take care of the time issue and the me inside issue. Who knows, maybe my heart will just swell to twice its size, and I'll have twice as much love to give them both more.