Never Ceases to Amaze Me

I was perusing through some old posts on my blog, and I came across a post on June 12, 2014. In it I described the night that God spoke to me about becoming a father. He made a covenant with me and promised that I would be a dad.

When I think back on that now, I find it amazing. My wife and I didn’t even start trying to have a baby until the following Spring. That means that God made me a promise before I even knew I needed one!

The difficulty of our journey to get pregnant is no secret. It permeates many of the first posts in this blog. We endured pain and hardship, felt loss and disappointment, and experienced a loss of hope and a testing of our faith. We visited multiple doctors in multiple countries. We tried experimental procedures. We lost babies through miscarriage and illness. We battled with weight and age. But through it all that promise from God back on that June evening in 2014 stayed with me. It was my rock, my anchor, that I clung to when we faced the worst and wanted to give up. And my steadfast belief helped my wife keep going, not because she believed, but because she trusted that I did.

When I think about all of that in context, I’m amazed that God already knew what we’d have to go through. And He spoke His promise as a way to bolster my faith and strength, not for things we were enduring, but for things that were to come. It’s like He was saying, “It’s going to be hard. It’s going to downright suck at times. You’re going to be mad at me, and that’s okay. You’re going to be pushed and tested to the very last ounce of your being. You’re going to want to give up. But remember this…I’m telling you now. You will be a father. Be patient and trust me. It will happen. Maybe not in your timing, but in mine. Hold onto this promise. It will happen. Like I did for Abraham and Sarah, I will fulfill this promise in you.”

And He did. On June 12, 2018. Exactly four years to the day. Troy became a fulfillment of the promise…an answer to our prayers. And it was all worth it. We could not have asked for a better son.

God amazed me that first night. He amazed me on that night four years later. And He’s still amazing me now when I see the symmetry of how this all came about.